senior prom went the way i wanted it to go

it just didnt feel the way i hoped it to be :(

everything does really change with the right person

guys this im at the exact place.. where i have spent my worst and best moments for the past 3 years. where i have cried ridiculously and at the time where my life has fallen apart, to the place where i found out the worst things my heart has ever been exposed to, to the place where i shared with my greatest love

it lingers 

what is a princess on her special night when her prince isn’t there with her

i question how I was able to do 4 proms in the past years and one year with two proms. like wow… idk where the motivation and energy came from.

it’s really not that much and it can soo easily be mended but it just feels like a giant rock on me that keeps growing

mainly because its not longer my choice what’s going to happen
yet the solution and the pathway to the solution affects me the most

I just want my main goal… or better yet my ultimate goal :(

so much stress when things can so easily be mended..

I thought this was what I wanted but I guess not. ): it’s actually making me feel worse.. I’ve been having some pretty bad dreams and I’m getting paranoidddd. there’s little clips playing in my head of all the things possibly hidden from me in their worst case scenario and its pretty bad.. what’s happeninggg??

pretty amazing how some things surpass others so quickly on the priorities chart

It’s like all the mean little things you tell me or joke around with me with are building up so whenever I think about them I start tearing up :( always..